Wednesday, 13 May 2015

The C word

So if you didn't know my Dad has cancer. Yes that scary word that everyone associates with death. Yes that word that is associated with the end of your free days. Yes that word that is rarely said and sends shivers down many people's spines. I am one of those people. But now I do not associate cancer with death. But now I don't think of it as the end of your free days. But it does still send shivers down my spine.

DAD'S STORY: Dad was diagnosed in 2003 with a tumour in his abdomen. That was removed and then in 2007 it returned again but this time in his lungs. Over the next few years he underwent 7 major operations. And he carried on fighting... Then devastation hit our family in 2012 when we were told the tumours had returned, but this time in his bones and three tennis ball sized tumours in his abdomen. This means the ones in his bones could not be removed. however, through Dad's persistence he managed to get the surgeon who originally took out the tumours in his abdomen to do it again. There was little that the hospital could do. He started chemotherapy but after 3 months we found out it wasn't working. It also made Dad really really tired and his hair all fell out. He had radiotherapy and it worked for a bit and then stopped. He was put on a new drug called Votrient which was new to the market and made his hair grow back white... We found out that this drug wasn't working with Dad's sarcomas and so now they are trying a new chemo on him and it is starting tomorrow. None of this would've been possible without the intensive research carried out by Sarcoma.uk with your donations. My Dad is still here today because he has kept fighting and donations to Sarcoma.uk have helped come up with many chances to try and help him stay alive for even longer.
Please please please donate if you can; it would be really really appreciated.

http://sarcoma.org.uk/ways-to-donate

Above is the link to the Sarcoma.uk website if you would like to donate! It would be much appreciated!!!!

Sarcomas are rare cancers that develop in the muscle, bone, nerves, cartilage, tendons, blood vessels and the fatty and fibrous tissues.

There are about 100 different types of sarcoma that fall into three main types:
They can affect almost any part of the body, on the inside or the outside. Sarcomas commonly affect the arms, legs and trunk. 

They also appear in the stomach and intestines as well as behind the abdomen and in the female reproductive system.

Sarcoma.uk is the only cancer charity in the UK focusing on all types of sarcoma.

3800 new cases of sarcoma are diagnosed every year in the UK.

10 people are diagnosed everyday with a sarcoma.

There is a 55% chance a patient with a sarcoma will live for 5 years.

As you can see it is really hard-hitting but what I want you to know is Dad is staying positive and we are so so so close and since he has had to leave work because of the cancer, I get to spend much more time with him which is great. So there are pros and cons to all situations and you have to try and look at the pros a little bit more then the cons. Dad is still fighting :) :)

dolphinlover xx

Tuesday, 5 May 2015

Paris- the city of love

Went to Paris for a netball tournament and we came 2nd out of hundreds of teams WOOOO!
However, the night before the final day, beef went downnnn. For everyone who doesn't know what 'beef' is it's another word for gossip.
So, there is a group who usually stick together. However, some people in the group wanted to exclude it more from everyone else in the club and others wanted to stay friends with everyone. My friend Katrina and I were neutral in it - didn't have a side and to be honest really didn't mind about what was happening. But somehow we got in the middle of it because when we spent time with one half of the group the other half got angry at us and then when we spent time with the other group the others would get angry. So really we couldn't please anyone! And then it started getting worse when people were telling me what other people in the netball team were saying about me and my voice (because it's quite high) and they said it in quite hurtful ways. So I got a bit tearful and left the cabin they were telling me and Katrina this in, and then Katrina was left in there by herself (which I now feel really bad about) and then apparently they started shouted at her and accusing her of being a snake between the two groups and telling both groups what the others were saying (which she wasn't) and then Katrina started crying and by this time I had stopped and we went for a walk outside and I have never seen her cry so much. They must've been really mean. But now it's all sorted (I THINK :)) so yeah! If you've kept up with that then you're pretty good! Sorry about the ranting just needed to get it off my chest.

Much loooove <3

dolphinlover xx

Lyf

What I was thinking about when stressing was: what is life? How do we know we're not just living in a game? How do we know we're not in a dolls house and some giants are controlling us? How do we know that we are Sims also playing Sims? The truth is we don't. However, these questions still fascinate me. I find the endless answers enticing and cherish the time I can spend just thinking about them.
When in Year 7, we took a compulsory class in Philosophy and I remember dreading it because I hated not knowing answers to questions. but as I've grown up I think I've become more mature in thinking and am able to think more deeply into subjects. I think this is a great example of how people's minds develop and change when growing up.
As I've grown older, I love to have time to think to myself. Just that quiet time. And no it's not because I'm a loner because I also love hanging with friends, but sometimes it's nice just to get away from the chaos and pressure and just chill and think. Try it!
I know some people will read this and think 'What was that girl on!' but once you try it, even just for 5 minutes before you go to bed on a night, you will feel refreshed and will have a deeper sleep because of it!
Much love

dolphinlover xx