Just FINISHED final season of a series called Gossip Girl. It's about a secret blogger who blogs about all of the gossip in the Upper East Side in New York America. I think it's a relatively popular show around the world but I was definitely hooked! I watched 3 seasons in 2 weeks! Yep... I admit I was obsessed. But it was so good and I always ended up clicking on the next episode and it just carried on and on and on!
I'm doing my Silver DoE soon. For those who don't know, Doe stands for duke of Edinburgh. It's a walk, swim, bike ride... there are many different things you can do. My school chose for us to do the walk as it is the most open to everyone (least sporty...) There are 3 levels that you can do, Bronze, Silver and Gold. I did Bronze in Year 9 and am now doing Silver. So you walk/hike for 3 days on a route that you plan together in your groups (that you chose thank goodness!) and you camp for 2 nights and have to carry all of your own food and cooking equipment. EVERYTHING!!! There are always problems with groups though. I thought I had the perfect group, there were 5 of us, but then this one girl (I'll call her Maria) assumed she was in our group because she just tagged along with me. But we have one of those weird relationships where you're not best friends but sometimes you are and sometimes you just annoy each other so much you don't talk. It's complicated (a bit cheesy!) She can be quite bossy and dominating and so I am slightly worried about how that will turn out, but we'll just have to wait and see! The Practice expedition (not assessed one!) is in April ON MY BIRTHDAY which could be a bonus because I'm with all my friends without having to organise a party but then also I'll be rationed on food and I won't get to see my family! So pros and cons but I'll just have to get on with it. There was other dramas but I think that is for another post. Anyway, school tomorrow and don't want any drama so best get a good sleep so I wake up happy!
Night Night!
Dolphinlover xx
Thursday, 15 January 2015
Better!
Feeling better today - not A LOT - but better. The last time I wrote I just felt really down and upset and it was a really good way to get all of my thoughts out. I have so many but now it's just finding the time to sit down and write them all! It's weird to think that I can write whatever I want and no one can see it that I know. Unless they suddenly stumble upon it but then they wouldn't know it's me. It's quite reassuring that my thoughts can be written down (actually typed) and they can stay private - no one needs to know. That also makes me feel better. How you feeling???
dolphin lover xx
Tuesday, 13 January 2015
mehh...
Anyone had their life seem like it's slowly and painfully fading. I have a little tickle that I'm slightly over-reacting but that's what it feels like at the moment. It seems like Dad is the strong one now, holding everyone, sometimes it's mum but if something upsets her or she's angry then it's Dad.
I think since Nani (Granny in Hindi) died, Mum has had a chunk taken out of her. No wonder, it was her mum, but I feel like it's something else... like she is slowly losing her fire on somedays and just throwing in the towel, saying she doesn't want to do it anymore, giving up.
Everyone has off days - I know that I definitely do, but I don't know, it's something different, like over a long time. I think all of the fighting is wearing her down. Because Jaz (sister) is being (excuse my language) a bitch and I admit it, I hold my hand up high, I can be a bitch sometimes too, but I guess it't just the teenager stage. Everyone goes through it, good days and bad. But you only ever hear about your friends good days. Does it ever feel like you wish your life was more like there's? Sometimes I think a little bit like that... But then I remember how lucky I am and that everyone goes through good times and bad times and it's just natural. I would never change my family for anything.
I guess mum has just been agitating me recently because even though my GCSE's (important exams) are in 1 year, I get stressed quite easily and so obviously, can feel the pressure and stress inside me building up bit by bit and I feel like it's just going to get too much. And then mum keeps on going on about how I shouldn't be watching telly and should be working and asking if all of my notes are up to date and how I need to do more work... etc I think you get the point. I know she just wants to help but I keep on telling her that I know what I need to do and I will do it. But I guess that loads of kids my age think they know what they are doing and so they don't need their parents help. But I do do the work and I do get it done. I just need to show her that. I think she wants to help me but she needs to know that when I need help I will ask. And I keep on telling her that it just stresses me out even more when she goes on at me about my work and my notes, because I know I need to do notes and I will and am doing them.
Anyway- enough already!!! That's what you're probably thinking! This has surprisingly helped! Weird! You guys should try it... I thought it might but I feel much more relived. Thanks everyone!! I feel like you all anonymously understand me! haha!
Love dolphinlover xx
I think since Nani (Granny in Hindi) died, Mum has had a chunk taken out of her. No wonder, it was her mum, but I feel like it's something else... like she is slowly losing her fire on somedays and just throwing in the towel, saying she doesn't want to do it anymore, giving up.
Everyone has off days - I know that I definitely do, but I don't know, it's something different, like over a long time. I think all of the fighting is wearing her down. Because Jaz (sister) is being (excuse my language) a bitch and I admit it, I hold my hand up high, I can be a bitch sometimes too, but I guess it't just the teenager stage. Everyone goes through it, good days and bad. But you only ever hear about your friends good days. Does it ever feel like you wish your life was more like there's? Sometimes I think a little bit like that... But then I remember how lucky I am and that everyone goes through good times and bad times and it's just natural. I would never change my family for anything.
I guess mum has just been agitating me recently because even though my GCSE's (important exams) are in 1 year, I get stressed quite easily and so obviously, can feel the pressure and stress inside me building up bit by bit and I feel like it's just going to get too much. And then mum keeps on going on about how I shouldn't be watching telly and should be working and asking if all of my notes are up to date and how I need to do more work... etc I think you get the point. I know she just wants to help but I keep on telling her that I know what I need to do and I will do it. But I guess that loads of kids my age think they know what they are doing and so they don't need their parents help. But I do do the work and I do get it done. I just need to show her that. I think she wants to help me but she needs to know that when I need help I will ask. And I keep on telling her that it just stresses me out even more when she goes on at me about my work and my notes, because I know I need to do notes and I will and am doing them.
Anyway- enough already!!! That's what you're probably thinking! This has surprisingly helped! Weird! You guys should try it... I thought it might but I feel much more relived. Thanks everyone!! I feel like you all anonymously understand me! haha!
Love dolphinlover xx
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